Goodbyes suck.

Well. We drove from Amed to Kuta today, only a 2 hour drive and dropped our bags off at the airport lockers and carried on to the mall for some last minute much needed items.  After checking my bank account which is always scary I now realize that I didn't budget so well on this trip and am pretty low on cash, but on the upside I won't be buying much from here on out other than a place to rest my head and cheap.. Very cheap food. Which is perfectly fine with me. 

Natalie and I basically didn't do much today, just enjoyed each other's company and she kept hitting me for being a sap all day. We had pizza for our last meal together, obviously. 

I'm really horrible with goodbyes, I usually don't cry and I get super awkward but not this time. We both shed some tears and I already miss her. It feels so weird already to be on my own.. Actually looking back now I handled that really badly. We walked to the aiport and so after our goodbye I had to find my dorm Which was a measly 3 miles away, I wanted to take a cab, I didn't want to pay more than 25,000 rupiah which is about 3 dollars. The first guy I saw said right away 25? And I was like okay! yes! thankyou God for making this easy, aaaaand then right before getting in his cab he asked me if I was paying American And that's when I realized no no.. He meant 25 dollars. The aiport is insanely full of cab drivers, annoyingly full, I wasn't too worried about Getting a cab. Until talking to 3 different Guys who were outright mean to me so I just sat down still crying to just take 5 and figure my life out. And then one man comes and sits down next to me and explains to me why the taxis are so expensive because they pay a lot of money to even park their cars there, and laughs and asks "why are you crying?" And that's when I snapped out of it, and he offered me a cheaper cab, not great but cheaper so I said yes and off we went. We chatted the whole way and he was sweet. When I said goodbye I said to Him "thankyou, I needed a nice person and you were very kind to me." He reminded me how much a simple act of kindness can go a long way, even if you don't realize it. 

I don't know where I'm going from here. I don't want to stay in Kuta it's not a very nice place, you can't walk down the street without getting harassed. I don't even know how to probably act in a dorm now that I think about it.  But I don't care I can figure everything out tomorrow, take it one day at a time.